Mi Familia!!

Mi Familia!!
Roscoe, Sophia, & Emily(across top) and then I think you can figure out the rest!

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Lately...

Life is just a tumblin' along around here!
I come by almost everyday to read the blogs I follow... but today I just realized I hadn't put up a post in TWO WEEKS!!
WOW!! Sorry, that I have been so absent.

here's a list of a few of the cool things that have happening lately....

My oldest has finished school for the summer, and had a big promotion ceremony, where she ended up getting a scholarship that we didn't know her name was put in for! It was a scholarship given to one female and one male for having exemplary citizenship, caring, compassion, and general all around good kid qualities. Yay, Emily! I was very shocked, and of course proud, and emotional, and all that good stuff. I am often amazed that I have been blessed with a daughter who people take notice of, in a positive way. I know that I am a proud Mama, but so many people see that she is special. I don't know how it is that I got so lucky. I am very proud of her, and really can't say enough good stuff about her... with out sounding annoying or like I'm gloating... so I'll just say this.
I love ya, kid! Thanks for being such a cool kid!


The day that Emily was promoted to being a HIGH SCHOOL STUDENT.... sorry I just had to put my head between my knees and breath slow calming breaths. I'm so not ready to have a high schooler! .... anywho, we went to the local amusement park. They have a "ride" that puts you in a harness pulls you up VERY VERY high and then let's you go... like a pendulum. Emily has wanted to do it since she was a little kid, but it is kinda pricey and we just never got around to doing it. So we did it! Al, Emily, and I went without the little ones to the park, so that it could be all about her... and we flew. It was so incredibly scary... but soooo awesome! Talk about an adrenaline rush! I was literally shaking for almost half an hour. My hands were quaking and I had a perma grin plastered on my face for the rest of the night! We all ended up enjoying it greatly! I don't know when we will do it again, but it was the best 45 second $50 I've ever spent, for sure! : )


ok, I'm not being dramatic here.. I was really questioning what the heck I was thinking when I came up with this plan!

All of us rigged and ready to go, and getting excited!

This was right after we got off our flight! : ) Can you see the crazy glint in all our eyes?

It was, of course, Father's Day yesterday. I made my husband a special dinner and splurged myself and ate it with him.(I took pictures throughout making it.. but then forgot to take some before we ate it all! whoops!) I made him stuffed steaks, with red potatoes and garlic, and some mixed veggies. It was the first time that I ate extravagantly since Mother's Day... so I figured I was due! Plus, it made him so happy that I made dinner strictly for his tastes... because there hasn't been much butter in my cooking for the last 2 months or so! I also made him a(n awful) Coca-Cola Cake. That is a sign of love if nothing else because this thing has nothing good in it. It is butter, lots of sugar, cola, marshmallows, and cocoa. Good, but sinful! I can't eat it... I hate to admit that I LOVE it... but I was very proud that I didn't indulge. NOT worth it to me... but super hard to resist so I hope that it is gone soon! ; ) I have been doing very well on my quest for better health! I have been exercising almost daily... some days I just can't find the time. But on the days when I do go I often do way more than I "need" to for my daily goals... so it works out fine that I miss a day here and there. I have been tracking my food daily and have gotten my portion sizes under control. I have lost 64 pounds as of yesterday. I hate putting my numbers up... BUT I am now only 2 pounds from being under 200 pounds for the first time in over 5 years. I feel better than I have in years, and I'm not stopping anytime soon! : )

Yay, motivation!
I have been walking a lot... speed walking mostly. I have also been playing badminton.
I LOVE IT!!!
I had to stop playing for a few weeks because I got so into it that I hurt my hernia repair. I played for hours, several days in a row, and then noticed that the cap over my repair was filled with fluid. Since that hadn't happened for a few weeks at that point, I knew that I had pushed a little too hard. Today I played again for the first time in a I think two weeks... and I'm pretty sure that it will be ok now. I'll keep aware of whether or not it is feeling good
I have also added walking steps into my work out routine. I am lucky enough to live in a city that has AMAZING parks and trails and is HILLY... so there are steps EVERYWHERE!!! My all time best (so far.. but stay tuned) has been 3.5 miles and 774 steps in an hour and 20 minutes. I was so proud of myself that day! It felt so good! I had made a little bet with myself about how far I could go, going up and down every set of stairs I saw on this particular walk. I really surprised myself. It was fun! I worked my way up to that last walk/stairs session, so I am hoping to push it that much further the next time! : )


My kids are loving all the time we spend outside in the garden and at parks. We have been going and going... it can get a little tiring but I think that it is good for all of us to be outside and enjoying the weather while it is here! Soon it will get a little hot to play outside, at the times we are out right now... so I don't want to waste any opportunities to get out and be active! They have noticed a happier healthier Mama, and are loving it too!


The one hard thing that has been happening is that my hubby has been having a hard time adjusting to all the changes that have going on. He is not big on change and truth be told a little self-centered, so if it is not making his experience immediately better... he's not that into it. We are going to an amazing woman to talk through things, with a moderator there to help us when we run into a roadblock in our communication, and I am seeing some progress. But sadly it is much slower than the positive things going on with me personally... so it is a little disappointing that while I am feeling better than I have for a long time... he and I are struggling more than I would like. It is hard when you and your partner don't see eye to eye... and at this point... I'm not willing to change my course at this point. I need to be doing what I am doing right now for myself... for my family and for my relationship with my hubby. Me, becoming a healthier person is not something that I am willing to compromise on right now. It's hard for my hubby to not get offended that, whether he is happier or not... doesn't matter that much to me right now. He would rather I stay fat and depressed... as long as it means Shepard's Pie and a clean house... Me, not so much... I'm just not willing to do that anymore... so as you can see... we're working on things!
I think that there is definite hope for us... there is no lack of love between us... it's just finding the middle road, that we are both happy with, that is the struggle right now. I had a psychology teacher once who would always say...
"No one has everything. You can't excel in all things at all times. You just have to choose your priorities and do the best that you can."
Well for right now, I need to get an upgrade on my own health and happiness... and in my happier visions, my hubby and I are walking this road together. On my harder days, sadly, it is possible for me to see my life without the man that I love more than anything else. I know that right now I am doing what I have to do for myself. I am being as kind and considerate as I can be at any given moment... and the rest is out of my control. I can only control the way that I choose to act. My actions, and RE-actions are the only thing within my control... the rest is up to who ever else I am interacting with. I have had a huge release of responsibility (at least in my own head) lately for the happiness of others. I can only be responsible for my own joy... coming to that realization has been very freeing. I hope that this all turns out the way that I would like... but I guess that we'll just have to let time tell the tale!

Here's to that tale matching up with the (happy) one in my head!

Today I am grateful that my journey to a healthier me is going so swimmingly!
I am thankful that I have a great therapist! ; )
I am thankful that my family is doing well and that we are all feeling the positive effects of healthful food and exercise in our lives, in one way or another!
I'm grateful that I have been given glimpses of my inner strength recently that I might have forgotten about for a little while! : )

8 comments:

5thsister said...

A hearty congratulations to Emily on her achievement. And prayers going up for you and your husband. Life is like a dance...you get used to the same old dance routine. When one partner decides to change the steps, the other will react "Change back"! (from the book, Dance of Anger) It will take time but it will be so worth it. Your husband will see that a healthier, slimmer you is not a threat to him. It's good to hear from you!

Gracey said...

I missed you!

Congratulations to Emily! You are right to be proud of her. I haven't met her, but it is obvious (from the pictures) that she is a unique person, with a great energy and inner glow.

I am happy for you and your healthy changes, too. The most important thing is that you feel better about yourself. You are not hurting anyone, just improving yourself both on the outside and inside. I really hope your husband realises this soon. It is so easy to give into the routine and then become negative to positive changes - I know, I've been there. I just hope this rough phase passes quickly.

I wish you all the best.

Lissaloo said...

Congrats on all the wonderful happenings in your neck of the woods!

Raoulysgirl said...

Congrats to Emily (and to you, Mom!). Sounds like lots of positive changes and good energy going on!!! As for you and Al...everything turns out the way that it's supposed to!!! As much love as the two of you obviously love each other, I'm sure things will work out fine. You are right about getting yourself on track (not that you need to be justified, but hey...what's a little back-up hurt?). You can't count on someone else to make you happy...you have to be happy with yourself first!!!!

Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers and sending lots of positive energy your way!!!!!!

Willoughby said...

Congrats to Emily on her achievements! She's such a pretty girl and that dress is to die for!

I'm blown away by your weight loss and determination for a healthier lifestyle. Could you send a little of that motivation my way?

It sounds like you're doing all the right things for your marriage by getting counseling. I'm sure your husband just needs time to see that you've changed for the better and that it will only strenghthen your relationship.

Tattoos and Teething Rings said...

Hang in there! There are always tough times, and half the battle is recognizing there's a problem and seeking the appropriate help, so you're well on your way to the life you deserve. And on a side note, I have an award for you.

blueviolet said...

What a completely honest, beautiful post. It makes me so happy to see that you know how important it is to take care of yourself first and that you're not willing to sacrifice that anymore. Big hugs! (I'm so glad I found you back)

Your daughter is growing up to be so stunning! --and I'm not saying that because she could be a sister to mine-- ;)

5thsister said...

I, too, have an award for you. Please stop by for a visit and to pick it up! Love ya!