So, as most of you know, I have an umbilical hernia that has been becoming more and more of an issue for me. I have been waiting for the doctor to have a space for my surgery, and I got a call yesterday.
The woman who I've been speaking with, a very nice lady btw, called me yesterday and said...
"You know Ruth, I know that you were hoping to get this done before the Dr goes on vacation, and we have an opening, but I don't know if you will want it."
me: "ok, when is it?"
"well, it's soon... it's April 1rst"
me:" oh, ok sure, I'm all in...set it up!"
"are you sure?"
me:"yup, it's soon, but I'm ready"
blah blah blah, I have my appointment.
So, of course, I call my husband to tell him, we need to request time off for him to be home with the babies that day and also for a few days after, to make sure that I am ok, and that the kids are taken care of ...
Well, he freaked out!
How about I am so un-superstitious that I didn't even think about it once until he pointed it out to me. Whoops! : )
I am still getting it done, I don't give any energy to that kind of silly negative thinking. I am ready and it is just another day really..I mean what's gonna happen?
Do you think I'll wake up from surgery and the Dr will say -hey Ruth you're bleeding out and everything's going down the toilet... (dramatic pause)JUST KIDDING... everything went great, you'll be headed home in a few hours... no ... the operation room is no place for practical jokes, so I don't think I have too much to worry about! : )
I am a little nervous because I don't like hospitals, but I am surprised at the amount of relief that I feel. I have been worried about the surgery for months and months now, and NOW that I actually have definite date ... well I feel good about it!
I am so ready to be healthy and strong again. Do you know how much it sucks to have to have someone else...carry the vacuum up and down the stairs.. not be able to get the laundry up from the basement.. the list goes on and on...
For years I did yoga everyday. I haven't been able to practice, or even stretch for months because even something as simple and seemingly "easy" as a child's pose would pop this thing out and start a whole domino effect of badness.
So, I will be getting back on track with this surgery and I CAN NOT wait!
I know that abdominal surgery is no picnic.. but at least that pain will have a foreseeable end.... and at the end of that tunnel is the opening to a much healthier & happier me.
Today I am thankful for my new perspective on this surgery.
I am grateful to have a husband who will be able to take a few days off to help me, and the kids.